October 24, 2001
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When I finally got a chance to run by Dr. Trinkle’s office, I decided against it. Mom has been an absolute angel since last Wednesday when she caused all the hoopla at the care center that resulted in her permanent departure from said facility. I called the director to tell him I wasn’t going to be bringing her anymore and he agreed completely with my decision. I’m glad it all ended amicably with no one upset. At any rate, Mom has been cheerful and a joy to be around for an entire week. It’s almost like she knew I was at the end of my rope and it was time to cut me some slack. Whatever the reason, it feels so good to be able to enjoy her. We’ve been sharing lots of laughs and hugging and kissing. *smile* I wish I had a recipe for this sweet disposition. I hope I haven’t ruined it all by mentioning it. My struggling to care for Mom has caused me to do lots of thinking about it lately. One thought that I can’t get out of my head is this: If I was the one who was sick, there is no question Mom would have turned her life upside down to take care of me. Whatever her faults, whatever her shortcomings, she has always been there when I really needed her. I thank God that He allowed me to be available for her. I know these days are numbered and precious and more of a gift to me than to her. May God forgive my complaining, discontented heart and help me to see with His eyes. I’m reading my birthday present from Josh and Leah, The Forgetting. So far, so good.
Hebrews 13:5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. . |
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