April 16, 2003

Well, the investigator from Adult Protective Services (who turns out to be friends with the director of Facility - go figure) decided that Mom probably just bruises deeply. I won’t go into the details, but my main interest is for my mother to be treated gently, so perhaps I won’t see anymore terrible bruises like this last one. By the way, Mom has never had a bruise that looked like that in her life.

At any rate, the last thing I want is to be on bad terms with the people there. As much as I hate conflict and despise feeling like the ‘bad guy’; I have a duty to Mom. I can’t sit quietly while thinking she is being hurt. I do need to be wise and compassionate in my thoughts and to not expect too much. I remember well how hard it was to care for Mom and can’t imagine that multiplied 14 times.

Mom continues to complain continuously about her feet. I feel so bad for her as I know they hurt terribly. I am so powerless to help.

I’m still enjoying my job quite a bit. I’m getting used to the hours, but still haven’t straightened out my sleep. Unfortunately, I keep waking up around 9 A.M. Since I don’t go to sleep til around 5 A.M., this is no fun. If I go ahead and get up, I won’t get more than an hour’s nap later, which leaves me tired. Sometimes I have taken a Tylenol PM and gone back to bed. I get my sleep this way, but then I have to rush to go visit Mom before work. I may try taking a Tylenol PM when I get home and see if it helps me sleep longer. I also brought down a fan from the attic, hoping the noise of the motor will keep me sleeping longer. I am getting better sleep than when I was working the daytime hours, so at least it’s an improvement.

Sometimes at work, we just get slammed with calls for hours. When this happens, my mind starts to go fuzzy. The other night I asked a lady, “May I have your name beginning with the area code, please?” She hesitated and said, “You mean my phone number?” Oh my, this hit my funny bone and I was snickering about it for the rest of the night. I must say that most of our regular customers are very nice and appreciate nice sales reps.

I’m waiting for Carole to call me so we can go out for a late lunch today. Sadly, I have been too busy to get together with her very often.

I also saw Mr. Taylor sitting on his porch today and waved at him. I haven’t taken him a meal in ages.

I guess it will just take a while to get into the groove of planning out all my responsibilities. I certainly don’t want to forgo my human relationships which are of great value.

I have been looking at houses online. I need to drop by the bank to see if I qualify for a loan. I have seen some interesting values. I would like to get moved before the extreme heat of the summer.

1 Timothy 6:17 - 19 Charge them that are rich in this world, that they be not highminded, nor trust in uncertain riches, but in the living God, who giveth us richly all things to enjoy; That the do good, that they be rich in good works, ready to distribute, willing to communicate; Laying up in store for themselves a good foundation against the time to come, that they may lay hold on eternal life.